Sky's birth is a day that is etched into my memory. I remember so much from that day like my husband saying "I see a nose" and the OB shaking his head no. At the time, not so funny but looking back it's hilarious. I remember Dan, said husband, holding her and just looking absolutely amazed. We had made this tiny perfect creature. (I did 99% of the work, but it's fine) 

I don't remember a lot of the newborn days, but I do remember struggling. I remember not feeling like I was enough. Not enough milk, not enough understanding what Sky needed, not enough sleep. So many things were just not enough in this phase. And unfortunately that feeling of not enough persisted throughout her baby months and toddler years. 

The toddler years were an absolute ride that I just focused on holding on. I started a business and working for a non-profit, Sky was going to preschool, Dan working multiple jobs, and more. Sky and I also went on so many trips. She became the best little camper and trip buddy. We did a huge trip for two weeks to Utah and back with friends. It's crazy that one of the hardest times of her life (so far) was so rewarding when I get to look back at it. Let's be real tho friends, being in the moment was HARD. 

Then Sky turned 5 and went into the elementary class and just became one of the best humans I know. It's like she woke up one day a human who could communicate her needs and chat and all the things that you look forward to. The past five years have also just flown by. Sky's gotten taller, weirder, funnier, and all around more amazing. I hate that old adage that the days are long and the years are short. Because it's right and sad at the same time. 

So now that you have read my backstory.. What's the point of this blog? Maybe it's for me to reminiscence on my baby. Maybe it's an excuse to celebrate this special kid (she is a Leo after all). Maybe it's for me to remind you that things are hard but they get better. Maybe it's for me to tell you that you are doing better than you think you are. Remember how I mentioned above that I never felt like enough? Sky reminds me almost every day how great of a mom I am. COMPLETELY UMPROMPTED. Promise. So let me remind you, our children see us much differently than we see ourselves. You are amazing Mama to your children. It's ok to feel that frustration, sadness, and all the feels. These kids keep growing and so do we.