I turned the big 4-0 on May 27, 2020. What a year to turn forty in. I had met Alicia (Buxom Boudoir) at an event we did earlier in the year and thought how great would it be to do a session. Let's be honest, after having a child and some funkiness with my hormones, I'm not feeling comfortable in my own body anymore. I don't feel particularly attractive or sexy. Don't get me wrong, I've accomplished A LOT with this body (two ultra marathons, over 10 GORUCK events, numerous other running events and mud runs) and most days I feel pretty strong. I'm a rather energetic person and my body will keep me going all day and night. It's an amazing body.

 

However, I have issues in the way that I view my own body. It's not skinny enough. I am lumpy in places. I don't think I should expose my skin as it's super pale. Just my own issues. I highly doubt that I am alone in how I feel. I'm sure many of you feel the same way.

 

So that's why I decided to book a boudoir session. Everyone will ask "O did you book it for your husband." Hell no. I booked it for me. I booked it because I needed a new appreciation of my body. Buxom Boudoir sees women in a different way and that's such a blessing. As the owner of this body, I tend to be very critical of it. Buxom Boudoir showed me that I have a lot of assets.